Have you ever lost somebody.
And you know, that empty feeling, when you wake up the next morning and you realize
That they are gone forever.
You will never see them again.
Have you known love?
Most people think they do.
Love is fierce and love makes you strong.
But love also makes you very weak.
It makes you reliant.
And what if he goes away?
He doesn’t need to be gone forever, he just needs to go.
And I will be broken so hard that I don’t know if I can be fixed back together.
I do not like being weak, vulnerable, and reliant.
At the same time I do.
And I know, even if he does leave.
I will move on because it is what the body, mind, soul does.
Shape a new world out of ashes.
And I mourn the loss of missing.
Instead of embracing the happiness that has replaced the sorrow.
I miss missing you, Anna, and I couldn’t forgive myself for it.
If I miss missing him… Will I ever get over it?